Everything in my life is in turmoil. Again. I was at a point where I could see the light at the end of the tunnel that is my bills. I was at a point where I could focus on fixing the little things in my relationship there were threatening to snip at the thread holding the whole thing together.

Now I don't know if I'll be able to keep the things I hold dear. I can't write because the texts could be taken out of context and tear apart the only thing I can cling to. Inspiration is gone, replace with desperation. My days are filled with video games, hoping to forget the duties that would keep me afloat in this dismal reality I have entered.

Nothing is for certain in this world, I knew that going into the last stage of events. It still doesn't make it any easier. Waking up to be glad you still have your bed for another morning is such a surreal experience. No matter how much you succeed, you can still be defeated with a wave of the hand.

What the future holds, I have no clue. Will I find another source of income, will I loose my house, will I loose my relationship. All are eerie possibilities, that are clawing at my mind. I have so many responsibilities, some that are not even my own. Life is a crazy, yet interesting thing to witness. Its been one hell of a ride. I wonder what's going to happen next? My favorite question, I can't wait to see!